Last post of 2010...

This year has been eventful to say the least. Life gave me something that made me truly fall in love with it again...

So this post is dedicated to that very special gift that life gave me -->

I saw little something at the end of the road,

I didn't know what it was but I was aboard...

I crawled, I walked, I ran for it,

The burden was heavy... It was heavy, damn it!

Then I saw those perky eyes,

Those swings of laughter, those gentle cries...

Yes I was smitten, I was bowled over...

I fell for the love that life offered!

No time ahead is MINE ever,

Its OUR's now...

and Its OUR's forever!!!

-to J

Uninspired excuses...

The following will make no sense to anyone but me, sorry about that...

Uninspired by the stark contradictions of life, I woke up to a thought. I had a dream and I woke up to make it reality...
Reality and life are not the same, reality is inside and Its your prospective... Life, life goes on... whether you like it or not.

Someone once asked me whats your idea of life, I said this life was never my idea... i was never given a choice.

now looking back at the last 20 odd years I feel... Its a good thing that we are never given a choice. Its good.

Some lazy moments when I don't have anything to do, to say or even to think... those blank moments inspire me. They tell me to gaze... upon whats going on... they tell me- wake up buddy, u r alive, a living, thinking being... cant you see the beauty of being alive...

So what's your excuse to to live one more day... huh?

Life loves LOVE

Its true that Love may hurt...
Hence, Its true that Life may hurt...
But this pain is the sweetest pain of all...
Coz Life loves LOVE...

and you know what, She's full of Life...
and now, So am I!!!

Love Hurts

Life hurts...
When Love hurts...
When does Love hurt...
When your Love is not around...

Me- Last year...

from my diary last year...

" Making Life...
Life is a bad choice that we're bound to make.
Searching for certainity even though uncertainity excites us...
Definitions are so important, labeling everything,

even the feelings... That's so human... That's so sick... "

I was so full of negativity... Thank god 4 sum1 who changed me...

Looking forward to my next post, hopfully full of hope... in other words, Life.

Inception

No, this one's not about the movie, though I'm a big fan of it. This one comes from the "Life of Pi", the booker 2002 winning book by Yann Martel. Pi is the central character, a simple guy experimenting with Truth and Beliefs. I always wonder, how come non-indians write such beautiful stories on India and we fail see the beauty of being an Indian.

Pi is me. Like Pi, I'm searching for my beliefs though I also say that Belief is the death of intelligence. May be We are supposed to be dumb every now and then just to feel human again.

Pi practices all religions. He's born a Hindu and goes to temple, He's been baptized as a catholic and He offers his Namaz 5 times a day. But the society can't accept that. It can't accept someone being a Hindu, a Muslim and A Christian at the same time.

I say I'm agnostic, rather 70% Atheist and 30% Agnostic. But I'm still a Hindu, a Muslim, a Christian, a Jew... I can be all these if I chose to recognize the life force that propels me. If I chose to recognize the minutest human gesture as a miracle...

Is it possible? or Am I just kidding myself...

The true religion…

I’ve heard of many life philosophy or religion, read some religious books too, such as the GITA, the BIBLE. My question was, why be a believer???

What’s the point of just being a believer and not doing anything about it? Not really trying to find out what we believe in.

There have been many creators in history, DaVinci, Michaelengelo etc. An ardent follower of these great creators follows their works, analyzes their works to learn about them. Because one’s works are the extension of one’s being. Thus the best way to know about any creator is to know its creations.

So what about the greatest creator of all time, whom we call the one, GOD? Why such a double standard when it comes to the greatest creator and the greatest creation, everything…

The best way to know the one is by studying about the greatest creation, the universe. And the only religion that’s doing it is science or the science of “Universe”, the theory of everything.

What we call the laws of physics are nothing but what the lord has created. Why can’t we accept that science isn’t opposite of religion but the right direction towards the ultimate truth. You need to understand the creation to know about the creator, that is really if you want to know about the one and not make assumptions on whether the one is a he or she, or human or speaks in human tongues or loves human being the most. I mean how much more naïve we can be, I mean Lets face it, we are nothing but a minuscule part of the whole universe.

How can science be opposite of religion, rather it’s the truest religion that is actually trying to understand the universe to know about the creator.

Don’t just be a believer, search for the truth to be enlightened. If you really want be close to the one, know the one…

Never look back, never stop…

The posterity of lies
never bequeath by the formers
the illusion of hope
sought by the minds, the beggars.
Come to peace with the turmoil inside
no more pain, no more lies.
Come to terms with the
extant pasts…
begotten fears and surreal aghast…
Reason with the humane feelings of disgust,
neither are we weak nor forgotten rust.
Look deep within the real self,
that doesn’t exist,
the matters of earthliness, the whole that will perish.
The luckiest will find an answer,
the answer to the unknown question
only then can one know,
that knowing doesn’t matter
the deeds only matter with the values of manner.
Don’t stop looking, for the journey is all…
The experience of being alive,
the rise and fall.
March till the end; if it comes…
But never look back, never stop
till the truth triumphs…

Drifty Minds…

As I slept awake all night, dreaming about having a dream and kept on it, trying to end it, going on and on for an eternity, I thought to myself, how thoughtful I was that night! That was the night that never ended while ending in the end.

The surreal realities unfolding in my mind had a real imaginary story embedded in it and it was true. Heaven or hell, I don’t know but it’s definitely not earth and if it is then finally I’m born again.

May be this is what it feels like, total bliss,
May be after death, this is what we experience… “Nothing”
Not just any “Nothing” but the infinite void… that fills this universe.
May be this is what Nirvana is.
Then again, may be not…

So he changed...

Do me a favor he said,
the agony of apathy fuelling the unrestful;
time consumes the euphoria of newness,
the memories of the past,
that became poison in his veins,
rotting inside and adding to the pain…

Shut it off he said,
stop the war mongering of the dreams and desires;
the ‘what if’s that were crushed by destiny,
the zeitgeist, so mercurial in its attires…

He stopped,
looked back at the future and the past fury of nature;
found an answer, may be…
whether to survive or revive the self, that was real…

So he changed,
living in the present,
the moment, that’s the truth;
the only thing that’s truly his
to decide, to live,
to be alive…